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Message started by Fr. Bill on 17th Jun, 2009 at 7:38pm

Title: Feeling very sad...
Post by Fr. Bill on 17th Jun, 2009 at 7:38pm
I'm feeling very sad, because my precious little dauschund "Bubba" isn't doing well at all. He started convulsing about 2:30 this afternoon. After about six minutes of that, he lost control of his left side.

The vet thinks he had a mild stroke this afternoon and he's in the hospital for at least two days for evaluation and treatment.

Bless his little heart, he's nearly twelve so I can't say I'm surprised too much, but sadly I'm much too poor to afford extensive health care for him.    :'(

Here's a picture of the little fellow about five years ago:

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Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Felix/FFDS on 17th Jun, 2009 at 7:45pm
My condolences.  While I'm not a pet person myself, I have seen the joy that they bring to others, and the heartbreak when something happens..

It also hits home a little since my son and his wife have an "older"  dacshund that has recently given them a similar scare.


Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Fr. Bill on 17th Jun, 2009 at 7:56pm
Thanks, Felix. I actually bought Bubba to keep my late brother company after he was diagnosed with acute hepatic cancer (liver). After Ralph died, I became Bubba's "Daddy" and he's been a very great comfort to me. Always faithful, never demanding or needy...

I've always had a soft spot for miniature dauschunds.  I've had four over the years, but I really think Bubba will be my last. I'm getting to that point in life where I cannot in good conscience take on the responsibility of a pet. I've had nightmares about Bubba being locked in his crate and starving to death because Daddy had been called Home during the night...   :'(

BTW, did your mail arrive safely?

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Chuck Jodry on 17th Jun, 2009 at 9:14pm
This i am very sorry to hear Bill , he is a great companion and the most faithful of friends , i hope he pulls through.

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Travis on 17th Jun, 2009 at 9:54pm
It's always a sad time when a beloved member of your family takes a turn for the worse.  But it sounds especially distressing for you since you aren't able to get another puppy after this.  I hope Bubba makes a recovery, or at least is able to come home soon.  I've always been unable to sleep whenever I knew my pets were in trouble.

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Fr. Bill on 17th Jun, 2009 at 10:26pm
Thanks, guys.  I didn't name him "Bubba." That was my redneck foster brother's idea of a "good name." I had a bit of trouble with the AKC getting Bubba registered because of his name. He is a rather rare "Silver Dapple" miniature dauschund.

My first three were, Col. Wilhelm Klink, Wachlen (means Wiggles), and Winken (Winky 'cause she was blind in one eye).

Wachlen and Winken were both AKC registered miniatures, and I had fantasies of breeding 'em...

Ha! Wachen turned out to be gay and Winken simply wasn't interested. Period.  ;D

Col. Klink became diabetic, and had to be put down late one night after having spent the entire day in the vet's care. They forgot to give him his insulin. Not knowing that, I didn't give him any and he slipped into a diabetic coma. When I called the vet at home, he got very angry and said he wouldn't see him until the morning.

My brother, two of his nephews and I drove the dog to the vet's house, woke him up and had him give Klink the "Big Sleep" at 2am.  I wasn't in the best of moods and told him, "If you send me a bill for this I'll personally pound you into the sand."  I never heard from him again...

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Fr. Bill on 18th Jun, 2009 at 11:19am
Thanks everyone for the kind wishes and prayers. Dr. Foster called me at 9am and let me know that Bubba is much worse today, and that all tests done thus far indicate that he's had a stroke. The prognosis for any recovery is not good, and any treatment would take months and be very, very expensive.

In his considered opinion, the most likely outcome would result in Bubba having to be hand fed, and nursed carefully until entropy's inevitable end.

So, having taken all of this into consideration, I've had to make the hard decision to have the vet administer the Big Sleep.  As I type this brief note I'm crying so hard I can hardly see the screen. Now I've got to pull myself together enough to drive to the hospital so I can sign Bubba's life away, and hold him gently as he breathes his last sigh...

...how I'll make it home again is another question...  :'(

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Travis on 18th Jun, 2009 at 12:16pm
Words can't even express how sad I am for you and yours . . .

I actually cried a few for "Bubba", and I'll hoist one for him next chance I get.

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Fr. Bill on 18th Jun, 2009 at 8:02pm
Thanks for the kind words of comfort, everyone.

I arrived at the animal hospital about 1:20 this afternoon and shortly was shown into a private room.
After a short wait, one of the staff brought Bubba in so I could cradle him in my arms.
He was so weak and pitiful looking, but he smelled me and slowly managed to give me a final face lick.
He knew I was there...

They told me that I could take as long as I needed, so I held him, gently stroked him,
and sang a little song I'd written just for him many years ago.
He looked at me several times as I was singing,
so I knew he heard my voice...

It's a silly little song, but I'd sung it to him everyday since he was just a tiny handful of wiggly puppy.

I love you Bubba,
Oh yes I do.
I don't love anyone
as much as you.
You are so good to me
it's true!
Oh Bubba, I love you.

After about an hour, Dr. Foster poked his head in and asked if we were ready.
I looked at Bubba, he gave a little sigh and then I realized that he knew he would not
be coming back home with me, but was instead going to Rainbow Bridge where he'd
be met by St. Francis, and taken to where all the precious companions can romp around
and play.

Dr. Foster came into the room and explained briefly that he would be using a two step injection process,
the first a mild sedative and the second a lethal nerve agent. After the first injection, he gently placed his
stethoscope on Bubba's chest, then gave him the second injection. He seemed a bit surprised that Bubba's
little heart stopped almost instantly. He said that was very unusual, and that it normally takes at least a minute...

So, I knew then that Bubba was ready to go to his final home...
It was 2:22 pm...

Listen to "At Rainbow Bridge the Puppies Play" a gentle instrumental I've scored for the occasion.
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Here's a link to the beautiful gardens where he will be interred soon:

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Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by joanvalley on 18th Jun, 2009 at 9:25pm
I'm so sorry for your loss Fr. Bill ... Most of the time we don't appreciate and maybe mock people who love their pets, but they certainly become members of the family and are missed when they are gone. Bubba will be in my prayers... and Fr. Bill, try to smile, he's with the good Lord now.

Jose.

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Chuck Jodry on 20th Jun, 2009 at 4:23pm
Beyond question you were as good a friend to bubba as he was to you , also beyond doubt is that only real men are comfortable
expressing sentiment in public , it proves they are emotionally balanced and whole human beings , i am proud to count you as a friend Bill.

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by dmaher on 20th Jun, 2009 at 4:50pm
My condolences Bill…It’s so sad to hear you’ve lost the little guy.  
You know best, but I hope you reconsider another pooch when you’re ready.

Danny

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Travis on 21st Jun, 2009 at 6:02am
Bill, I lost my dog of thirteen years a few months ago, and I understand the pain you must be feeling right now.  My dog Pepper was a loyal and trueNo p friend, no matter the circumstances..  I loved her dearly, but her body failed her in March.  I will always remember her as the beautiful and joyful pet she always was.  Thank god that we, as humans are able to experience the joy of another being while we are here on Earth.

Bubba has passed, but his legacy lives on with you.

No one is gone until the last seed of what they planted has been reaped.

Bubba will always be with you, and you will always see him in the rising sun . . .

My deep condolences . . .

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Rick_Piper on 2nd Jul, 2009 at 4:55am
Hi Bill

Sorry to hear that mate  :(

Losing a family pet for me is like losing one of my kids :'(

Regards
Rick

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Fr. Bill on 2nd Jul, 2009 at 2:08pm
Thanks Travis and Rick.  It's now been three weeks since Bubba had his stroke, and just about ~25 hours from the 3 week anniversary of his death.

By now the searing pain has been reduced to a more manageable ache. Throughout the day though, every time I hear a strange noise, I find myself glancing around to see what the little scamp has gotten into now.  ;D

I would imagine that you've had something similar happen Travis. I'm sorry to hear about your precious friend Pepper.  :'(

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by Travis on 2nd Jul, 2009 at 2:44pm
Thanks, Bill.  As you say, the pain becomes a manageable ache.  But even after nearly four months, I'm still hit by the occasional pang at fairly random times.

It's all just a passing.

Title: Re: Feeling very sad...
Post by jgoldman on 2nd Jul, 2009 at 9:54pm
Bill:

The loss of a love one is always hard to bear, time  helps heal the hurt and tranform it into wondeful memories that forevermore will bring warmth to your heart.

Take care my friend..... many send their prayers to you and any other person that has sustained a important loss.

Sincerely

Jim Goldman

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